{"id":60541,"date":"2018-11-20T20:38:44","date_gmt":"2018-11-21T04:38:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.pickthebrain.com\/?p=60541"},"modified":"2018-11-25T19:41:52","modified_gmt":"2018-11-26T03:41:52","slug":"death-is-a-tragedy-that-keeps-us-going-how-it-feels-to-experience-loss-for-the-first-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.pickthebrain.com\/blog\/death-is-a-tragedy-that-keeps-us-going-how-it-feels-to-experience-loss-for-the-first-time\/","title":{"rendered":"Death is a Tragedy that Keeps Us Going: How it feels to experience loss for the first time"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\u201cDon\u2019t be afraid of death; be afraid of an unlived<\/em> life. You don\u2019t have to live forever; you just have to live.\u201d \u2013Natalie Babbitt.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Summer 2018 was supposed to be thrilling. Summer 2018 was supposed to be the summer of freedom. But I was wrong.<\/p>\n

I had recently graduated college and was excited to move back home to begin my next chapter. I was finally free, free from school. No more homework, no more stress, time to enter the real world and have some time to enjoy myself.<\/p>\n

Early June, my friends went to the beach. All but one returned home. My friend was missing. 24 hours later, they found him at the bottom of a canal, dead.<\/p>\n

That phone call I got and those words I heard will forever echo in my mind.<\/p>\n

\u201cHe\u2019s dead, he\u2019s gone, he\u2019s dead.\u201d<\/p>\n

Those words couldn\u2019t settle in my brain. My stomach was uneasy; my anxiety was high. I just didn\u2019t understand. How can someone just be gone like that? How can someone so young just vanish? <\/em>I felt like he was just on a long vacation, that one day he would return. But the reality of it is, he wasn\u2019t, he was gone.<\/p>\n

He was my best friend. And I had never lost someone close to me before. I thought I would feel it. I thought I would feel the physical sense of someone being gone from this world. Someone I had a deep connection with, I thought the feeling would pass through me. The feeling of a soul being taken. But I didn\u2019t and now I was stuck trying to put together what happened.<\/p>\n

How does one cope with this loss? <\/strong>
\nThe day I got the news, a group of us went to his apartment. I could feel the emptiness of the place. All his belongings were right where he left it, but he was not.<\/p>\n

We all sat around on the living room floor staring at a single rose in a vase, a lit candle and a picture of the friend we had lost. Everyone was teary eyed, some balling, but me, I was just numb.<\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t know what I was supposed to feel. But the truth is, I was feeling grief for the first time ever. The worst feeling possible.<\/p>\n

There would be random times of the day where I could imagine him coming back home. Other times I felt like bursting out in tears. I felt this pain at the pit of my stomach, the world just didn\u2019t seem right.<\/p>\n

Realizing You\u2019re Not Alone: <\/strong>
\nLater that week we held a vigil at the restaurant where he had worked at for almost 8 years. Feeling anxious and sad, the vigil went on. But something happened. Something almost satisfying.<\/p>\n

The turnout for the vigil was insane. Over one hundred people came to pay their respects. The news even came out to document the experience. Multiple people came up and shared their fondest memories with him. Everyone said something similar. They discussed a time where he did something for them without them asking. They explained how he was so kind, selfless, and always put others first before himself. He was the glue that kept us together, but in his absence the bond was broken.<\/p>\n

However, by listening to these experiences, it really made me realize just how much of an impact one person can have. That one single human being touched the hearts of over a hundred people in such a personal way. Now that is true love.<\/p>\n

Time to Face Reality:<\/strong>
\nThe following week I had to travel down to North Carolina for my cousin\u2019s graduation. We spent all day driving and went straight to the ceremony. This was a great opportunity to see family I haven\u2019t seen in years.<\/p>\n

But still, something deep down was hurting. I just didn\u2019t know what to feel.<\/p>\n

Later that night, in the hotel room, I was laying down trying to get sleepy and it hit me. All at once, it just hit me hard. I found myself balling. I finally felt the feeling of loss. I finally felt something, and I hated it.<\/p>\n

In my despair I turned to sad poems and songs. It just made me cry harder. I was finally processing what had truly happened. I was finally feeling.<\/p>\n

These questions of Why him? Why is life so cruel? Why do the good die young? <\/em>were constantly going through my brain. But the truth is, there will never be an answer.<\/p>\n

The empty feeling: <\/strong>
\nCleaning out his apartment felt empty. His boyfriend and I sat in their room, boxes all over the house, his belongings spread all over. It just didn\u2019t seem right. There I was at my dead best friend\u2019s house, going through his stuff, reliving his memories.<\/p>\n

But the memories didn\u2019t make me sad, they made me feel relieved. For these memories were happy times, times where he was living his best life. Adventures he went on; concerts he went to. We even found a letter he wrote to his boyfriend wishing him happy birthday, explaining how he loves him and wants to make their relationship work. Yes, the situation was horrible, but living these memories helped me get some closure.<\/p>\n

The Outcome:<\/strong>
\nOnce a person loses someone close to them, the hole that was once full will never fully be filled again. That person you wish you could call up to catch up is gone and that person will never come back. However, the memories will forever be there. I cannot think of one bad memory of my friend. I can think of times where we bickered, but it was all out of love. I am now left with these beautiful memories of a time we once both lived together.<\/p>\n

Death really gave me a new perspective on life. Death really brought the people he left behind closer. Death showed us a new type of love. Death gave me more of a reason to want to live.<\/p>\n

At the end of the day death isn\u2019t so bad. Death reminds us that we are human. Death proves that these moments are not going to last forever and that part of living is dealing with grief and loss. Death is a reminder to live your life with yourself in mind, do what you want to do and accept no less. It\u2019s to time accept what happened and continue on, because this is your only chance.<\/p>\n

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Rebecca Toro is a writer and digital artist. She is a recent college graduate who is excited to share her experiences and advice with others. Want to chat? Follow Rebecca on Instagram, <\/a>Twitter<\/a> or check out her portfolio<\/a>.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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