{"id":58032,"date":"2018-06-17T18:49:12","date_gmt":"2018-06-18T02:49:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.pickthebrain.com\/?p=58032"},"modified":"2018-06-18T07:32:40","modified_gmt":"2018-06-18T15:32:40","slug":"signy-comes-clean-embracing-the-struggle","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.pickthebrain.com\/blog\/signy-comes-clean-embracing-the-struggle\/","title":{"rendered":"SIGNY Comes Clean: Embracing the Struggle"},"content":{"rendered":"<div style=\"margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px;\" class=\"sharethis-inline-share-buttons\" ><\/div><p><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>We wrote &#8216;Clean&#8217; to paint a picture of what it&#8217;s like to struggle with demons that often overwhelm you without warning. We both have experienced the magnitude of childhood trauma. We&#8217;ve been to the underworld and returned to the land of the living. Fiends have many forms. They&#8217;re shapeshifters. They can self-replicate and reproduce. Those that follow you may be different than ours, but the struggle is the same, and the struggle is real.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I bang my head on an imaginary wall&#8221; is a representation of how real the struggle can get. It might be intangible and inside you, but you can hurt yourself with it.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I dig my nails into the floorboards as I crawl&#8221; represents the inner turmoil of getting well. You want to be better, so you move forward, but you hold on to what&#8217;s familiar even when it&#8217;s slowing you down. Or killing you.<\/p>\n<p>Self-hate is a reflex that develops when you&#8217;re trying to make sense of why others have hurt you. Once you realize that they hurt you because they were hurt, the healing process can start. And when you take your power back by believing you deserve to be here and be heard, you begin the journey to self-love. &#8216;Clean&#8217; is about that journey.<\/p>\n<p>We end the song with an anthem: &#8220;I am, I am not here to please. I am, I am out of apologies. I am clean.<\/p>\n<p><strong>You are not alone in your struggles. They make you the beautiful human that you are. You may not see it yet, but we do.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><iframe src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/RHpeDNDpaxI\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p><strong>Clean Lyrics<\/strong><br \/>\nSorry this dream takes up so much time<br \/>\nSorry my life is burying me alive<br \/>\nI am sorry that nothing has worked out like we planned<br \/>\nI am sorry the one you love is the one you can&#8217;t stand<br \/>\nSorry these voices are telling me to hide<br \/>\nSorry I ever asked you to stick by my side<br \/>\nI am sorry space seems like the perfect solution<br \/>\nI am sorry that I\u2019ve come a permanent pollution<br \/>\nI bang my head<br \/>\nOn an imaginary wall<br \/>\nI dig my nails<br \/>\nInto the floorboard as I crawl<br \/>\nI am, I am not my disease<br \/>\nI am, I am out of apologies<br \/>\nI am, I am, I am<br \/>\nI am, I am, I am<br \/>\nComing clean<\/p>\n<p>Sorry my needle pulls me away<br \/>\nSorry I only call when I need to fix the pain<br \/>\nI am sorry no one I love could ever understand<br \/>\nI am sorry the darkness guides my hand<br \/>\nI bang my head<br \/>\nOn an imaginary wall<br \/>\nI am on my knees<br \/>\nIn an empty bathroom stall<br \/>\nI am, I am not your magazine<br \/>\nI am, I am out of apologies<br \/>\nI am, I am, I am<br \/>\nI am, I am, I am<br \/>\nComing clean<\/p>\n<p>When will this stain be gone?<br \/>\nI&#8217;m barely hanging on<br \/>\nTo a thread of what I was<br \/>\nDo you hear me? Do you hear me? Do you see me?<br \/>\nI bang my head<br \/>\nOn an imaginary wall<br \/>\nI twist the knife<br \/>\nCause I wanna feel it all<br \/>\nI am, I am not what happened to me<br \/>\nI am, I am out of apologies<br \/>\nI bang my head<br \/>\nOn an imaginary wall<br \/>\nI dig my nails<br \/>\nInto the floorboard as I crawl<br \/>\nI am, I am not here to please<br \/>\nI am, I am out of apologies<br \/>\nI am, I am, I am<br \/>\nI am, I am, I am<br \/>\nI am, I am, I am<br \/>\nI am, I am, I am\u2026 Clean<\/p>\n<p>SIGNY are an electropop duo from Austin, Texas. Connect at: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.wearesigny.com\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">https:\/\/www.wearesigny.com<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>We wrote &#8216;Clean&#8217; to paint a picture of what it&#8217;s like to struggle with demons that often overwhelm you without warning. We both have experienced the magnitude of childhood trauma. 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