What Exactly is Self-Awareness?

I said to myself towards the end of 2011 that apart from being true to myself and who I am, I would like to increase my self-awareness. But wait a minute, what exactly is self-awareness? How can I blog about self-awareness without even knowing how to define it or what this concept encompasses.

Of course, my gut reaction was to resort to Google and read about the psychological and sociological definitions of self-awareness. My research led me to Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, that to achieve self-actualization, which is according to this psychologist, the highest form of self-awareness via fulfilling other basic needs as physiological, shelter, a sense of belonging, and aesthetic needs progressively. Other theories as Carl Jung’s postulate between the real self, the perceived self, and the self we would like to be. Yet others discussed the links between our egos and super egos with what we would like to achieve.

I got slightly muddled up and confused with all the different theories. Every one of them seemed to make sense. Yet, I couldn’t quite pinpoint what it meant for me to apply in my life day to day. It wasn’t until an ah-ha moment during my Chinese calligraphy class that I discovered what self-awareness meant to me. Let me try to illustrate this concept with my practice in Chinese calligraphy.

Every week I look forward to classes at my teacher’s home. There’s an indescribable sense of tranquility and zen associated with the place. It gives me a feeling of purpose for my life I suppose, that I have something to do. In addition, every time I leave his home I feel somewhat lighter, clearer, and at peace with some enlightenment about my inner self. I just hope that the serenity would last till the next class for I still am not very disciplined at being consistent in practicing my calligraphy and taichi at home to keep this sense of relief a constant.


One day, we were practicing the character 覺 (pronounced jue, means sensation, feeling, awake, enlightenment, aware) during class. The character, as usual came out a bit wobbly at first. But by the 10th time I was starting to get frustrated, and a little desperate – why wouldn’t the brush spread out the way I want it to?


Teacher asked me to recall what my state was when writing that stroke. I looked at him perplexingly, “How do I remember?” I wondered, “I was just writing.”


He asked, “Was my wrist too tight? Did I grasp the brush too closely with my fingers? Was I breathing normally?”


I didn’t know. And felt defeated.


Teacher prompted me to continue with writing the next character. However, this time, Teacher asked me to pay attention to different parts of my body and my breathing as I wrote the different strokes. And, if I had to, stop and bring myself to become aware of my physiological changes.


So, I continued repeating the same strokes. This time, I wrote much slower. With every stroke, I focused on the writing, and also how my palm, elbow and even my legs were positioned.


Surprisingly, when I paid attention to what I took for granted, I noticed that I was tapping my feet slightly, my shoulder was all tensed up, my elbow lifted too high. Ah! I was also slightly short of breath here. Teacher nodded his head.


“But why was my body tense?” He queried. I looked at him again like a deer in headlights.


I wrote again. This time my physical body wasn’t too tense it seemed, but my strokes was a bit too thin.


Another mini analysis – “Hmm,” I pondered. “I started holding my breath and my fingers closed in on the brush too forcefully, so the ink didn’t flow out quite as well since the brush couldn’t spread out.”


Right. But why?


Teacher told me to go back in time for a few minutes and remember what I was thinking while I was writing.


Oh. Bingo. I was thinking about the errands I had to run after class, I admitted sheepishly. And I also started to worry that the stroke would turn out at the wrong angle, and that I could not achieve finishing the character aesthetically the way it is supposed to be.


He smiled. That’s why.


I was distracted. And I worried unnecessarily. My thoughts interfered, or rather guided my physical sensations: I started breathing shallow and hence had to hold my breath for fear I could not finish the stroke whilst I thought about something else over the task at hand.


Consequently, my body also became tense as I worried about not accomplishing my character the way I would like to. As a result, the more nervous I got, the tighter I gripped my brush and over exerted the force required. And voila, a lopsided character!


The thoughts of errands to run, the emotions of worry and nervousness, the physical sensations of a rigid body, shallow breathing and tight fingers, and the behaviour of calligraphy writing were all inextricably interlinked.


One affected the other. The behaviour is what only we see on the surface; the physical sensations were guided by my emotions, which were in turn, affected by my thoughts.


This seemed to tie in somehow with the psychological theories I read. It made sense to me that Maslow believed self-awareness was a progressive, bottom up process: one had to attain and fulfill physiological needs before one could start thinking about a sense of belonging and so on. However, to look at the same situation, my example of calligraphy writing was an introspective process, that by identifying a phenomenon of outward behaviour, we determined what it was aesthetically and emotionally that caused such an action and result.


Theories I came across are not mutually exclusive with our own individual interpretations of self-awareness. We could also take what works for us to apply in everyday life.


My way is as follows:


  1. 1. Take note of the physical behaviour and / or result

What was the action I took? How did I behave? Was I yelling and screaming? Did I just sit without saying a word?


  1. 2. Recall how I felt during that action

What was my emotions at that moment – was I upset, hopeless, frustrated, elated, in a rage, nervous, anxious etc?


  1. 3. Link the emotion underlying the behaviour to any specific thought(s)

What was I thinking as I felt the emotion – was I worrying about anything, occupied with errands to run, imagining a result?


In the beginning, it took a bit of time to recall and analyze the situation. By now, however, I’m in a habit and it takes me perhaps only a minute or two to understand my own behaviour, emotions and thoughts.


Through repeating this process in myriad situations, I’ve come to understand more about my personality, what makes me happy, what makes me sad, what I would like to do and who I am at the core


Thus, this is self-awareness for me – to discover my values, passions, and who I am through empathizing the thoughts I have to the emotions I feel that underlies a particular behaviour.


What is self-awareness for you?



Raised in Hong Kong and Australia, Noch Noch was a young, overachieving executive for an international corporation, working and living in the world’s most premier cities. After seven years of living the life she dreamt of, or so she thought, she suffered a serious episode of stress-related depression that turned her life upside down. As she battles with depression, Noch Noch is on a quest to be the wake up call for others in similar plights. She strives to be true to herself, jotting down her reflections on living with depression and self-awareness at “Be Me. Be Natural.” (http://nochnoch.com).


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10 Responses to What Exactly is Self-Awareness?

  1. 近年、リアルなダッチワイフの人気が急速に高まり、男性は性的快楽のためにそれを使用するのが大好きです。 しかし、これらの人形の人気の理由について話すならば、同じ理由がいくつかある可能性があります。 ラブドール

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